~predzel

I got tired of having a New Year post stand in front every time I check this place.

As I seem to be incapable of coming up with anything for posts and I don't want to go the standart way of posting photos, as it seems just too simple (sorry!), I've come to a conclusion that I shouldn't consider this an art portfolio or something. Rather than that, and sadly, it's an access spot - profile for subscribing to interesting artists and seeing messages about new arts being posted.

How great! I'm becoming more honest about reality. ^^

New year and new life? ...... Nope ..... Can't see the reason behind those ideas.
But ..... It's about time I changed my entry. Have never gotten rid of my state of mind, but getting more used to this. That one seems to be here to stay.

This year I'll be working hard on getting over with university. And the moment I get rid of this four year burden - Hell will freeze over and break loose the same moment. *evil grin*

Please bear with me this year as well. No art, but as this place allows to put out scripts as well, I'm thinking of posting some essays. They would me pretty much about nothing, but something among the lines of art nonetheless.

明けましておめでとうございます!!!

Haven't been that much of a known person around here for anybody to know, but ...... might as well write something senseless about my life here. As I'm not holding any blogs or diaries, this might as well have become my substitude for that sort of thing. ...... I know ..... Just don't say it out loud.

My everyspring "reset" period has gone out of control. Usually I get over it in a week or two, but this year there's no ending on the horizon. I wonder, if that's because of the many things I've come across during the past year or is it something else? Some would call it "reaching full maturity", but somehow I don't feel like agreeing. Maturity is when the body is as old as the soul and mind. But, if we speak among those lines, my state of mood is "old soul in a body far behind".

I looked up the symptoms on the books to find out, how serious my depression is right now. ..... Yeah! D.e.p.r.e.s.s.i.o.n. ..... I'm smart enough to run my own internal diagnostics. Saves a lot of trouble. It's harder to come up with measures against it though. If there's really a reason behind writing this, then it's probably the thought of telling it out somehow with a faint probability that someone will stumble upon this thing due to boredom, which is also not that bad. On that note, not to make an impression of a gothic or completely socially useless mood ..... it's mostly on the inside. I still am able to force out my other face, that people are used to or, worst case scenario, retain a calm or silent face. Everybody of us out there has enough problems on our own. I've no desire nor the need to relieve myself by burdening others. I suggest anybody, who's bored enough to read this, to do the same.

....... *for a moment fells bad and stupid for not having any new art to add*
Yeah ..... that too, but not now. That's for sure. I'll be lucky if I pull my motivation together to write the needed coursepaper and avoid shamefull failure in front of my teacher. X_X

It's getting pretty warm out here ..... And as I hate winter .... Warmth is goooood!

Other than that .... I managed to bring to half-end only one sketch and the same is too bad to put it out, so I showed it to my friends over at MH and let that crap rest in peace. I think I think I'll better make some smearing graphic pictures, so that my profile doesn't seem hollow.

Speaking of MH ..... that's quite amusing. SMF can't handle the pressure anymore, so we're switching over to vB. Poor Winterlion, Fuzzy and Terra are going whacko, while the site's been set to "read-only mode" similar to the one, we have here at times. I'm just happy that the Artworks Gallery we have there and of which I'm responsible, won't need any tweaking and I can just hang around dealing with conceptual and RL issues.

As spring comes I'm getting a typical increase of philosophical mood, but that's not worth mentioning. Those, who get affected by that, will understand.

I have gained a lot of duties lately. And it's right when I wanted to start posting some other pictures than those two early tablet improvisations. I'll try arranging things so that I still have time to make and post some art. For all: me, MH and this place as well.

Hmmm ...... well ... that's strange, but... I ran out of ideas for this entry.

BLARGH!!!